Mister and I talked again last night about engagement plans and what we're going to do. I told him a few months ago that I wanted to postpone due to fighting issues and our need to learn how to fight "better". I just don't like how we deal with things at times and he doesn't like it either.
Well last night, I was texting him and we talked about not waiting anymore. I'm so torn. The majority of me wants to become engaged when he comes home on leave. I don't want to wait anymore. I'm just plain TIRED of waiting. I love him more than anything in the world so why wait? There is another part of me that is worried though because there are things in the past that both of us need to get over and it scares me that neither of us have. If he was here with me than we could've worked on the issues a long time ago and already be engaged.
So what do you do... become engaged knowing that along the way we can work on our problems and hopefully figure them out or wait to become engaged until the problems are figured out? Blah... advice anyone?
4 days ago