Like many people...
I fear being alone.
I fear rejection.
I fear feeling stupid.
I fear betrayl.
I fear being hurt.
I fear pain.
I fear instability.
I fear being financially unstable.
I fear failure.
I fear success.
I fear not being healthy (mainly coming down with some disease).
The list could really go on and on...
Why am I telling you all this?
Beth Moore made me realize something that I've known for a very long time, but have not fully participated in. That something is trusting God - with everything. I have no reason to be afraid of things that I can't control. Why? Well, let me show you how she broke it down in her book:
You: "Lord, I don't know if I can trust ____________ or not."
God: "But you can trust Me?"
I think its very clear in some of my posts that I'm a firm believer in God and that Jesus died for my sins. There is no reason for me to hide it or to feel ashamed. If it's something that someone would not like to read, then I'll be sad to see you go. I do trust in the Lord which in turn made me realize that if I trust God with everything in me, then why should I be afraid of things? He is in control. He will take care of me. I will not fear bad news.
So what saved me from future mental breakdowns you ask?
This Bible verse did:
[She] will have no fear of bad news; [her] heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. [Her heart is secure, [she] will have no fear; in the end [she] will look on triumph on [her] foes. PSLAM 112: 7-8Since coming across the verse, I have repeated it over and over again in my head when I start to feel nervous about something and suddenly, peace comes over me - I'm no longer afraid. Anxiety is something that I have dealt with since I can remember. Nothing has ever helped and maybe that is because I was looking to things other than God's Word. I feel so blessed.
I wish that I could share with you all that I have learned so far in my beginning of security (it's a lot!), but if there is one thing that I want to take from this book, it's that I can trust God with everything and that in Him, I want to be secure and can be secure. I'm already becoming more secure with myself and in God. I think that's pretty good for a months work.