Saturday, December 3, 2011

Married & All the Rest!

It took having a girl contact me through my blog to realize that I haven't wrote in forever. I've been meaning to, but we all know how that goes. Right now seems like the perfect timing though to start back up under the circumstances.

About a month ago, the boy and I got married! Everything went perfectly. I honestly could have not asked for anything more (well except for my brother to be there). It was a very short ceremony and then the reception was at my house. Only family was invited, but since my brother lives out of state and just got a new job, he wasn't able to fly back home in time. Good thing we're having a vow renewal next year that he can be at!

I did end up going to the Marine Corps Ball about a week before we were married. It was fun dressing up. I felt honored to be there meeting all of Misters higher-ups and getting to know some of the other Marine girls before all the guys would be deploying a few weeks later.

Those few weeks later have passed and yes my husband is currently deployed. It's our fourth deployment, but this one is definitely the longest and lack of communication has made it more difficult. Where he is at, there is no internet and mail comes about once a month. All we have are letters, which I find to be actually really amazing, because with letters, I think you can really grow close to someone and that's what we are planning with this deployment - to grow closer to each other and make something good out of it. I almost feel like I'm back in WW1 with the yellow bow tied around the tree in my front yard and writing love letters every day to him. My goal: give him the most mail out of anyone. I will succeed!

Friday, September 30, 2011

The Break Down.

Here I am sitting in front of my parent’s laptop about to have an emotional breakdown. The past six months have been a rollercoaster for my family and I. Six days after my birthday my grandpa passed away. He’s lived with emphysema for as long as I can remember due to a missing gene in his lungs. We were expecting him to pass, but I wasn’t able to be by his side because I simply could no longer watch him fight for each breath and listen as his lungs were literally mush. A couple days before he passed, I visited him for a couple hours and just bawled as I sat by his side. The whole time I felt anxious and literally wanted to breakdown. I had to leave. I didn’t want to remember him that way. I believe he understands though. I’m just thankful that the last words I muttered to him were, “I love you,” as I kissed him on his forehead and brushed his gray hair. I just really wish he was here…

I was more than blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life. I know he’s in Heaven now breathing in deep breaths and enjoying his time with his older brother and parents. I love and miss you so much grampy… I know that I will see you again. Watch over our family.

On top of my grandpas passing, I’ve been trying to emotionally prepare for my fiancĂ© deploying, as well as us getting married in less than a month. I wish I could tell you what was going to happen on our wedding day, but I have no clue myself. Therefore: stressed. We’re either getting married at my church or a nearby park. We’re either inviting twenty-six people, twenty-four people, twenty-two people or making it strictly parents and us (therefore, eight people). We’re either skipping on a reception or going to a nearby restaurant and hopefully keeping the bill under $600. Basically we’re all either going to go bald from stressing so much or go bald from literally pulling out our own hair. No joke.

I can fully understand why people elope. I get it. I don’t think I could do it without my parents, but I understand why anyone would want to just go off, get married, and not worry what anyone else thinks or says. Weddings are so much stress although most of it I think we bring upon ourselves. At least, that’s what I’m starting to think. I’m beginning to not care what anyone else thinks. I just want to be married already…

& so the emotional breakdown continues.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The Ball

We're going! At first Mister told me we wouldn't be able to because tickets were no longer available. He told me he would make it up to me though. Well a little bit ago, he sent me a text telling me to get my dress ready. I was very confused at what he was talking about. Apparently, one of the guys s/o can't go, so he gave the ticket to Mister so I could come! Yay me!!

This will be my first (and last) ball so I really hope that everything goes perfectly!

Does anyone have any advice for me?

Friday, August 12, 2011

Found My Wedding Dress!

What a relief! There's only a little more than two months until we're married and I just now finally found my wedding dress. Boy has it made me that much more excited. It's really starting to sink in that I'M GETTING MARRIED! I can't wait to be his wife!

Wedding planning has been in full force lately. We started some DIY projects and cut others out. We wanted to make some cute lanterns for the tables, but they turned out to be extremely flimsy and quite ugly. Not exactly the look we're going for.

It's been hard planning though since Mister is currently away for training. We haven't spoken one another at all for the past couple days. As crazy as this might sound to a lot of you military significant others, it's actually the longest that we've gone without speaking. I'm doing fine. I find the hardest part about it is not being able to tell him about my day. I never realized how important that is to me.

It's crazy how little things can mean the world. I'm just blessed that we have been able to experience the things we have to get us to the point we are now. I honestly can say that things haven't been better. We're both just at a really great spot and have truly learned to communicate and appreciate one another. It's wonderful. Things are wonderful!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Pre-Deployment Pictures

I have been wanting to get pre-deployment pictures for a while now. Mister and I have the date where I'll be heading back to California for a visit, so I've been Googling away, trying to find a photographer. I'm desperate ladies, and I don't know why I haven't thought of posting this before. Does anyone know a photographer in the San Clemente/Oceanside area? If you do, comment me or send me a message via the contact link above!!

Monday, August 8, 2011

Winner, Winner!

I have found a new obsession... wedding blog contests. I have won three times already though so at least its not for nothing. So far I've won...

- a $75 giftcard to Blurb where I plan to make something like this:



- a Berry Ball so I can keep my bras in tip-top shape!



and...

- a hair flower from Thread Rare



I'm in line for a few more contests, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'm REALLY hoping to win all of my save the dates, invitations, and menus. Maybe a little far fetched, but hey, a girl can dream when it comes to her wedding.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Today I was able to spend some time with my best friend at the beach. It was so relaxing to be able to lay out in the sun and hear the waves crashing. I noticed two things during our two hour beach session:

1. Being at the beach in the midwest is quite different then being on the beach in California. I would take California any day, but I can be content under the circumstances.

2. Seeing all the young families almost made me want to have my own little one. Keyword: almost. I couldn't imagine having a baby during this point of my life, which is probably why God hasn't blessed me with one yet - that and the fact that Mister is over two thousand miles away may also have something to do with it. Seeing young parents play sand castle with their kids and taking pictures of their newborns playing in the sand was just too precious though. It just makes me so excited to be a future mommy!

One day!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Looming D.

I probably shouldn't be writing when I'm this tired, but here I am writing anyways. This is a recipe for disaster. I've realized nights are when I'm most emotional so typing right now is probably a no, no. But here I am, typing away!

Mister is currently training for his deployment and I don't have much access to talk to him. It's making me realize how hard this stupid deployment is going to be. There's no way to prepare for them, but little tastes of it scares the crap out of me. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I'm strong enough. If I'll be able to cope with not talking to him. I remind myself though that if God brought me to this, he'll pull me through to the very end. So, I move forward and suck it up - just like all the other men and women out there whose loved one is deployed.

It's so weird how the time has passed. It seems like just a little bit ago Mister came over to the states to be stationed in California. It's already been almost eight months and the day he leaves US soil again is coming up closer each day. I get emails all the time asking me how to deal with a deployment. It's so easy to tell a person to stay busy, write a lot and maintain personal goals. Going through the process yourself is a whole different story. It's scary, stressful and emotional.

Having been through three deployments already, you think one would become a pro at it. Simple truth: they don't get easier. Not to mention every one I've been through have been month long deployments, not seven or eight. I've been blessed on those short deployments to be able to talk to him every couple days, if not every day, at least through email. Therefore, this one is going to be brutal. I can already feel it creeping up one me. I know soon its going to be tapping on my shoulder and then I'm going to face the big bad D in its face. Oh how much joy that will be.

I guess it's just part of the military life that I have to get used to. At least until Mister gets out. Ahh that's another topic for another night.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Field Pictures

While I was in Oklahoma I had the chance to take some pictures out in a field. Check them out here!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Things have been crazy lately. My dad just had surgery last month and now my brother is having surgery in a couple of weeks. On top of that, if he has the surgery, which he needs, he'll lose his job. Talk about great huh?

I haven't had much time to write lately due to working so much and trying to get my photography going. I've had a few photo shoots and have been learning more and more lately. It's been wonderful!

Not so wonderful is all of the pre-deployment training Mister is doing. I know his workup is larger then most due to certain circumstances, but come on! It's just nice knowing that soon he'll be deployed and soon after that we'll get to start our lives together. Together. I love that word.

Over the fourth of July I was able to spend a whole five days TOGETHER with him. It was wonderful. By the way I basically saved him on the beach... I won't go into detail, but I wanted to plug that in incase we look back at this and I can remind him :) Yes Mister, I saved you!

My last post stated that I was going to be going to the Marine Corps Ball. Unfortunately, money is tight and I won't be going anymore. I'm heart broken, but I understand at the same time. That means, the dress that I have might be going up for sale. I'm still deciding whether or not to do this because I love it so much. There aren't many dresses like it and I know that if I sell it, it'll be gone. So right now, I'm thinking.

Well I'm off to go search for wedding contests! I am determined to save money by winning things - now if only my luck turns around :) Wish me luck!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Big Moving Mistake + Ball!

When I had the chance to move to California, I should have taken it. This past fourth of july weekend, I spent an amazing 5 days with my fiance. We talked about ways to keep me out there, but with things this soon to his deployment, it's just not possible. Two words: this sucks. The day I left, I cried up until five minutes of boarding my plane back home. It's the hardest I've ever taken leaving Mister. Normally I'm able to bounce back pretty easily, but this time, I feel like a part of me is still in California. I have no motivation for anything right now. It worries me how things are going to be when he's deployed. I won't give up - never would be an option for me, but gosh it's going to be hard.

One nice thing I learned about while in California is that they cut two months off of his deployment. How great is that! I'm sure it will change another million times, but 9 months instead 7 months would be awesome. I will take it. I also learned that I am going to the Marine Corps Ball!!! I'm going to post my dress that I'll be wearing so you can all see it. I need to know if you all like it or if I should get  a new one. It's my prom dress that I wore a long time ago and luckily it still fits. :)

Well I'm off to spend some time with my friend. I need girl time right now. Much love!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Pregnant

I'm not technically pregnant, did you think I was? That would be quite difficult with me here and Mister somewhere else. I have been having quite a few dreams lately though of me being pregnant. I couldn't quite understand why I was having these dreams so I went to Facebook to ask my friends first, and then I went to Google to check accuracy.

According to Dream Moods...

"To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Alternatively, if you are trying to get pregnant, then the dream may be a wish fulfillment. If you are not trying to get pregnant, but dream that you are, then it symbolizes fear of new responsibilities."

This nailed it. To a T {or is it tee? - who knows}. There has been so much going on in my life recently that I haven't been posting about. I've tried. About a million times. Problem is, I get a paragraph into the post and then nothing else seems to want to come out. Words just aren't there and nothing seems to really be appropriate for me to write or hold the topic to the standard it should be placed.

Where to begin...

1. My grandpa is entering hospice care early next week. It's hard knowing that one day we're going to get a call that he's passed. The only thing that really comforts me during this time is knowing that soon he'll be able to do things we all take forgranted: breathing, walking, and running. My pa has lived with emphasima for as long as I can remember. He was born with a missing gene that affects the lining of his longs. I can't honestly tell you the last time I saw him without an oxygen tank or without gasping for air from only a few steps. It breaks my heart, but I know that soon he'll be in Heaven rejoicing with his family.

2. My dad had surgery yesterday. He ripped the ligament in his elbow right off the bone and it recoiled up to his shoulder. That his horrble imagery I probably just put in all of your minds. Sorry! His surgery went well though and now he is trying to recover. He might be out of work for four months, which I'm hoping is not the case. Financially, my family just can't do that. I truly do believe that his injury was for a reason. He was suppose to attend a mission trip to Jamaca in a couple of weeks to a very bad location. God is looking out for him and you just never know what could have happened. Also, with my grandpa in hospice, it's best for my dad to be home incase he passes.

3. I bought a plane ticket to see Mister. I'm so excited to go out there. I won't go into details, but we need this. I need this. I miss him so much that I could just cry. It's weird, I dealt with the distance so much better when he was in Japan. Maybe it's because when he was there I knew it wasn't possible for me to visit him. Neither of us could afford a $2000 plane ticket alone. Now, I can afford the ticket to California, the problem is, with him deploying soon, we can't seem to figure out a time to get me out there during all of his training. I'm trying to be positive, but goodness it's annoying.  We're both literally crossing our fingers that I will be able to fly out there in the next couple of weeks and that nothing will come up and that my ticket doesn't go to waste.


Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Emotionally Abused.

I just found out that HE is single now. I guess it just happened recently, although I'm not sure why and I truly don't care to know. He could have been bad to her {wouldn't doubt it} or she could have cheated on him {wouldn't surprise me}, but he's single and I'm scared. It's been so long since he's contacted me and I don't want or need him to try to do so again.

The "he" is my ex. I talked about him when I first started my blog a couple years back, but he hasn't been mentioned in a while simply because he isn't a part of my life anymore. He will always be a part of my past though. No one will ever really know how much of a toll the relationship took on me. After we broke up I turned to alcohol to try to stop the pain; it usually only made it worse. For God knows how long, I cried pretty much every night on our deck once my family was asleep. I would look at the stars and wonder what he was doing and cry out to God to know why forgetting him was so hard. I learned no one ever forgets someone, you just realize one day that it no longer hurts.

I haven't completely got to that point yet of no longer hurting, but I'm closer to it than I ever have been. I'm still pissed for everything that he put me through and how he treated me, but I'm also mad that I ever let it happen. It's crazy how you can look back and see what was happening, yet during the relationship you were so blind. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship and I couldn't find a way out. I never knew what was going to trigger him or how it got to the place that it did. All I knew was that I hated how he treated me and I thought maybe I could change him... maybe if I acted a certain way he'd like me more which therefore would make all the yelling stop. It would make him stick around longer. It would make him love me. It never happened and I've learned since then you can't change someone. Sometimes I wonder if I was actually myself if things would have turned out differently; I'm glad they didn't.

Every now and then when he gets brought up, the pain all surfaces back. It's so much easier though then it was before. The healing process from being emotionally abused is in progress. Oddly enough, I don't remember a lot that happened in the relationship anymore. I don't know if that's because it just doesn't matter or if it's because the really bad times out-weigh the good so much that it's made me forget a portion of the relationship. I remember the first, second, and third time he cheated on me though. The first he was scared of losing me and the other two he didn't care because he knew I wasn't going anywhere. Ugh. I also remember the day I caught him in a lie and stuck up for myself. Stupid fool he was - lies catch up to you sooner or later. The one moment I'll never forget, is when he thought I was raped {which I wasn't} and said, "So are you like pregnant now or something." It never even crossed his mind to ask if I was OK or show any kind of care towards me. Infact, he hung up the phone like he had done a million times only a couple minutes into that conversation. His friends were better to me than he ever was and when you have his friends telling you he's no good, then a girl should know to run and run far.

Now, I can happily say I'm in the best relationship I've ever been in and I'm so very happy. If you would have asked me during and after the abusive relationship if I still believed in love, the answer would have been yes, the only difference is now I've finally found it. Soon I'll be happily married and I know that the things I went through are ones I will never have to experience again. They've only made me a stronger woman and motivate me to be the best fiance I can be.

"I am worthy of love and respect."

Friday, June 3, 2011

First Commercial Photo Shoot!!

Last Wednesday was a big day for me! I got the chance to take pictures at a college in Kansas for a graphic design company. I finally had the chance to sit down and post the pictures on my photography blog. Feel free to check them out here! I'm pretty excited about how they turned out!

I have been so busy lately that I haven't had the chance to talk much about all of the wedding plans {more lack there of, ha!}. They're coming along as good as they can! We still have no idea when Mister is going to be deploying so we haven't done much for our actual wedding day.  I have started doing more of the planning for our vow renewals though. We have most of the little stuff done. We have a good idea of how many people are coming, what our centerpieces are, and I have my dress (YAY!). Financially, we're trying to keep things inexpensive. My mom found bride and groom wine glasses at a garage sale for only three dollars! Normally, they're about twenty-five. Garage sales have become my best friend!

Well, I am off to edit more picture and to clean up around the house quick before sleep time. I hope you all a very great night!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Oklahoma Sunshine

It's been an amazing few days so far. Nothing but sunshine here in Oklahoma which makes me happy because A. It's tornado alley and I hate storms and B. I need to get my tan on since I am so pasty white. Seriously, the magnitude of how white I am is not okay.

Yesterday I was able to go to a ranch where my friend has her horse and take pictures. I think they came out pretty good. There are some shots that I am dying to upload, but I first want to touch them up a little bit in Photoshop. A little touch up never hurted anything right? I'll be sure to post them though as soon as I'm done.

I also took pictures today, but more so of architecture. I'm obsessed with architecture.  If I could travel around taking pictures of it and blog about my travels and pictures for the rest of my life, I would be forever content. Clearly I must be dreaming though. I will dream on.

Well tomorrow is a new day full of lots of adventures. Me and my brother are heading to see Hangover 2 (so excited!) and then we're having a BBQ later on in the day. I want to wish a very happy (& safe) Memorial Day.  Hopefully it's day that we all can look back on loved ones that have passed and remember the good times that we've had with them. A special thank you to our military: thank you for your sacrifice and what you do for our country every day. I am so thankful for you!

What are your plans for Memorial Day?

Friday, May 27, 2011

I Love Nights Like Tonight!

Sipping on a White Chocolate Chai Tea Latte in Oklahoma on a beautiful summer night. Loving life. :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Battle Wounds & Making Progress

The past couple of days have been quite dangerous for me! I worked pretty much open to close on Monday and Tuesday and I have battle wounds to prove it {really, I do!}.

On Monday, while I was arranging some hangers at work, I proceeded to head butt the counter leaving a bruise right below my eye brow. Then while in the backroom at work, I somehow managed to headbutt a hard container that left a bruise, bump, and cut above my right eye brow. Both hurt! Again, battle wounds!

Although it wasn't very fun working almost open to close both days, it was nice to see the hours that I racked up. I'm leaving to visit my brother in Oklahoma today so my work was trying to give me the most hours possible before we left {thanks!}.

My little vacation to see my brother isn't all play. I booked a job through my uncles work and tomorrow morning I will be taking pictures at a museum that they designed {graphic design company}. I'm kind of nervous, but I made sure to print a lot of material on tips to shooting in low lighting so I'll be reading that during the eight hour drive {I know you are jealous of that...oh and I'm not the only one going so don't worry - I won't read and drive!}.

I also have another photo shoot of my friend who I'll be taking pictures of while she is on her horse. I am so excited for these! The ideas for the shoot are just flowing through my brain. You will have to check them out at my photo blog once I get back!

Well, I have a lot I need to get done in the next few hours. I hope you all have a fabulous week and hopefully I will be able to write a couple times while I'm gone! Much love!

Monday, May 23, 2011

YOU (yes you) Continue to Amaze Me

It's been amazing going back and reading all of your blogs. I still have more to go, but I'm 3/4 of the way of catching up. My fingers are numb, but your stories have made it well worth it. Do you all know how beautiful and strong you all are? If you don't, you should.

You continue to amaze me with your ability to express the hurt and lonliness you're feeling while mourning the loss of your husband and the strength you find each day to continue on.

You amaze me with your stories of surviving such horrible acts that have been done to you and your courage to take a stand and speak out.

You amaze me by showing off how great you are at doing probably the hardest job... being a mother. I hope that I will be able to this job as great as you.

And you amaze me at how strong your being while kicking the deployments butt. We all know there are hard days and you're able to admit them. We all know there are good days and your able to celebrate them.

So here's to you fellow bloggers for being some of the most amazing women I know.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

New Chapters and Beginnings

It’s been a year of new beginnings for me. A lot has changed and I have many new chapters coming up soon. It is all sort of scary, but exciting at the same time. For the first time in a long while, I feel like my life is actually moving. I think back a couple years and I can’t say much that I’ve accomplished. I’ve stayed in college and have received good grades, but starting a career is something completely different. I’m just happy to be able to really begin my photography life.

The past couple of days I’ve been taking the first few steps. I started a photography blog where I’ll be posting pictures as photo shoots happen. I figured it’s a great way to not only see how I’ve improved over time, but also a great way for customers to see my work. If you’d like to follow my new blog, please check it out here. I would love all of your support right now.

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve been able to read blogs and actually comment back. Off to change that right now. Until next time!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A New Family

In the past two weeks, I noticed that a little family moved by our house. Two robins made a nest under the deck in my backyard and today I realized that they had babies! Based on how big the baby robins are, they must have had them a little while ago because they're already pretty big. I couldn't resist myself when it came to taking a picture. They're just too cute!

I want to keep the birdie!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Semester Done {Check}!

Today was a beautiful day. I worked this morning, but got off at a decent time so I was able to get right into my swimsuit to catch some sun rays before the sun went down. It was nice to just lay there for a little bit and relax. I must do that more often. My goal this summer is to take advantage of every nice day {that is if I'm not working all day}. I just feel like the past few summers I've cooped myself up inside all summer and that's just not what I want. It's not what life is about. Besides, being outside will give me time to take some nature pictures.

Like a lot of other bloggers, I just finished up my classes this past week. I feel like a million bricks were lifted off of my shoulders.  I can finally just breathe. It's so nice to know that I don't have to study for a test or read any more twenty page chapters in a textbook. Yuck.

Well, tomorrow is a new day and I need sleep so I don't miss out on it. Good night blog life. Sweet dreams!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Coupon[ing]

With Mister's deployment around the corner [yuck] and money low in my pocket [again, yuck], I decided to give something a try... couponing [can't believe I just said that]! I was watching the show Extreme Couponing on TLC and it just amazes me how much people can save. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm NOT going to get that extreme with it by any means, but I think actually taking the time to look for coupons for things I know I need is smart. I went on Target and I looked through their coupons and they actually have stuff for what I buy. How crazy is that?

My plan is that I want to get good enough where I can buy a lot for cheap so that I can send it to Mister and he can share with his platoon. Why not start now right? Yup, it's decided!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Modern Military

I was contacted a few days ago  by Megan, a clothing designer, who runs a military-inspired online store called Modern Military.  Being a fiance of a Marine, I've come across a lot of these military support stores. I'm always on the lookout for cute Marine t-shirts, but I often find ones that I just couldn't see myself wearing on a day to day basis. This is the exact reason why Megan actually started Modern Military. Her husband was in the Air Force and after looking for cute military supportive clothes, but not finding any she liked, she decided to start her own line [how awesome is that!].

The thing that really stood out to me about Modern Military is how simple yet adorable the clothes are. Check out these cute t-shirts that would be great for this summer to match with some shorts or capris.


In the Coast Guard? Don't worry - Coast Guard inspired clothing is coming soon!
Modern Military was recently launched and new items will be added soon including a mens and children line so make sure you check back regularly to see Megan's new designs. She also has a blog so be sure to follow her. I think we can all agree that we love meeting new bloggers :)

Monday, May 2, 2011

Big Day for the Mister!

Mister got promoted to Corporal today! I'm so excited for him. He's worked so hard for this. I can't tell you the amount of times he was suppose to be promoted, but got screwed over and wasn't able to. The day is actually here though and I'm so happy for him!

YAY BABY!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I Booked My First Job!

That's right! I will be going to Kansas next month to shoot for a graphic design company! I'm so excited :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Big Day!

I might have a photography shoot in Kansas IF I do well today. I am taking pictures for my uncle so he can see how I do in low lighting. I'm doing my test shoot today to see how I do: wish me luck!!

Heres one from my last shoot:

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Want to Know What...

...sucks? Phlebitis. I have it going up and down my leg. It hurts and my vein feels like its going to burst out of my leg. Not cute, nor fun.

...is awesome? I'm going to a local history center to take pictures for my uncle. He works at a graphic design studio and I might be taking pictures for them at a design they made in Oklahoma. I am soo excited! I am going to be studying dim lighting photography all day so that I can do my very best tomorrow.

...is stressful? Finals are one their way and I've been working like crazy to get all of my stuff done. Luckily I don't work until friday so that will help to get things done. There is just so much to do!

...is new? MISTER IS RANKING UP!!! Yup, sooo excited for my baby. In a few days I will be the fiance of a Corporal :)

...is old? The weather we've been experiencing here in Minnesota. It just will not become spring. The warm weather has to come soon. Keeping my fingers crossed. One good sign, the grass is getting really green and buds on plants are coming, it's getting close!

Also, all the changes that are already happening wth Mister's upcoming deployment. It's coming up and it's changed about 5 times. Got to love the Marine Corps! It comes as no surprise though. I knew that's how things just are, "Always changing!"

...is sad? My grandpa is in the hospital and isn't doing very well. We're hoping that he's going to be able to make it through but the doctors don't think it is looking good. He is a strong man though and has already proved to live longer than they expected. He is an amazing person and true example of what a real man is like. I wish you all had the pleasure of knowing him.

...I've missed? Writing in my blog. I'll write again soon!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Photo Shoot Sneak Peak!

Just thought I would post some pictures from a photo shoot I had earlier today. The portraits are of my best friend. I'll post more soon, but I'd love to hear what you think!


Friday, April 15, 2011

Exhausted

This past week has been extremely busy for me. Mister was training all week so I took the time away {as in not able to skype} to get homework done and prepare for upcoming finals {gross!}. I didn't get nearly as much done as I wanted, but I at least made a dent in it. Now, I'm just sitting here... not even wanting to move I'm just that tired. I'm actually contemplating about sleeping on the couch just so I don't have to get up. Lazy? Maybe. At this moment I don't really care.

Past week updates:
-Rash on legs from Avon product is finally gone! Took a little while, but it's all gone. Phew!
-The photoshoot I was suppose to have ended up getting postponed until later this coming week. I was so bummed, but it's going to happen so right now I just need to focus on my homework.

I'm about to pass out so good night bloggy land.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Photo Shoot!!!

I'm having my first photo shoot in a couple of hours and I am SO EXCITED! My friend said that she would stand in as a model for some portrait pictures so that I can start showing what I can do. At the moment, I only have fine art images so showing what I'm capable of doing with portraits will be a great first step to success! Yes, I said it: success.

I can't wait to share all the final pictures with you!

Stay tuned!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Something to Keep Me Sane

How things can go from great to horrible is beyond me. What’s sad is that I’ve been sitting at my computer for the last 8 hours waiting for someone to contact me and still nothing. I’m driving myself nuts. I wish I could publicly fill you all in on everything, but this is to be kept private. Not even my closest friends know and I’m thinking it’s going to have to stay that way for at least another week. Who knows, maybe I’ll just end up keeping my mouth shut.


You know what feeling I hate? The one when your stomach feels like it’s in knots.

I would post this message as it is, but I want to keep busy. I think that’s what people say to do when you’re waiting for something or trying to keep your mind off a worry. So the continuing of this post moves on {sorry in advance for any randomness}.

Something New I Love:
Chocolate covered strawberries. Not just any chocolate covered strawberries, but white chocolate covered ones! I never realized how good they are! There is an added sweetness to them that I’ve been missing out on. Don’t get me wrong, I still love my regular chocolate covered berries, but a white one every now and then will not hurt me.

Something New I Dislike:
Facebook. Yes, I went there. The only thing I somewhat enjoy about it is the fact that it can keep those far away in touch. It’s not very useful for me though anymore. All the friends I used to keep in contact with via internet, I don’t talk to anymore. Right now, I wish I could delete it, but my pictures are on there and I think that would be a poor decision business wise. Maybe once my business is fully up, I’ll delete my personal one and live off a business profile. That way I don’t have to deal with its stupidness.

Something New I Learned:
Our government does not know how to budget money. Huh, who knew?!


Well, it’s official. I’ve ran out of “something’s” to talk about. I suppose I should pick up my room or try out the new tea that I bought last week. This could turn into a very productive week if I actually put the “keep busy” rule into practice.

Jessica Harp

My prayers go out to you! You are not alone hun and if you need anything let me know. I'm so thankful that you are safe and pray that you get all the help you need.

Keeping you in my thoughts...

Question That Popped Into My Mind

There is a book called So Long Insecurities by Beth Moore that I absolutely loved reading. It put a lot of things into perspective and I would reccommend it to any woman! In the book she had mentioned a story of her friend who found out some information about her boyfriend. The girl broke up with him, but then continued to snoop through his stuff where she continued to learn more and more. Beth Moore goes on to say that God is keeping you from things he knows would break your heart. The girl didn't need to know everything that she found out. If she would have just broken up with him and didn't snoop, she would have saved her heart a lot of heartache.

So my question is, when one decides to snoop through someones emial/facebook/etc, is this a way of basically asking for it? I mean, the saying goes something like if you snoop, you'll find something, but honestly how accurate is that? Shouldn't it be that if someone snooped that they shouldnt have to find anything because there is nothing bad there? I could have Mister look through all of my stuff, but there is nothing that he would come across that would upset him. That's not because I'm a sneaky person and went deleting everything - it's because I don't have anything to hide!

What are your thoughts?

Sunday, April 10, 2011

A Vacation in a Room

Is it weird that when I {hopefully} visit Mister in May that all I want to do is stay locked up in a room and only go outside to have a nice dinner or to go for a walk? The beach would be wonderful as well now that I think of it. I just want a weekend where him and I can just enjoy each others company. No schedule, no visiting people, no list of "things-to-do". I just want a weekend to ourselves to be a normal engaged couple.

I think back on the times we've been with one another and everything is SO rushed. When he comes home for leave we're pulled in every direction possible. I never complain about it. I want to see him, just like every one else does. In fact, I get more time with him on Skype and what not than most people, so there is no reason to complain.

I just need time with him. I need a relaxing weekend together. I need us to have no plans and just do whatever we feel like. I need him.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

One Product I'll NEVER Use Again - Skin So Soft by Avon

Growing up in a northern state, one doesnt get as much sun as those in the south. It's just as simple as that. Unfortunately for me, I was "blessed" with naturally pale (and I mean PALE) skin. When I go to the store for makeup, I'm that girl that gets everything in the lightest shade possible.

The time that I mind the paleness the most is in the summer. I hate tanning beds because I don't want to be 30 looking like I'm 50, and I don't have the time to lay out in the sun for a little bit each day. Not to mention, I don't tan naturally very well either. I was blessed...

For the past couple years, I've been on the hunt for the perfect tan in a bottle. I've tried numerous brands and products and although I've come across a few OK's, I decided the other day to try Avon's "Skin So Soft" product. That was a big mistake. I thought I'd be smart to test the product on the top of my right foot. Just to see if I liked the color. If I did, I would do it on a bigger portion of my skin - like both of my legs for example since everyone is wearing jeans still where I'm at. My foot was fine after a few hours, so I impatiently just did it all over my legs... {must learn patience}. I'm now sitting here with a rash from the top of my feet all the way up to my butt. Apparently my body does not like "Skin So Soft" and now where there is a hair pore, there is a red bump that BURNS! I've been drugged up on Benedril for the last 3 days and there is finally a slight improvement in my skin.

Whatever is in the stuff that I'm allergic to, I probably shouldnt be around it! I was sitting in the shower {to lazy to stand up} and had my arms sitting on my legs. Well, the rash spread to both arms... yay me!

Note to self: never use that product again. Also, kind of jealous of those that can, because the color was actually somewhat decent.

Friday, April 8, 2011

The Day Mouthwash Became My Best Friend

While {trying to} park my car in the garage today, I accidently pulled up too far and hit our snow plow. Crap. I got out of my car and looked to see if I did any damage to my car. There was what seemed to be a mark that could be buffered out so I did the follow:

Lick finger... rub mark on car... lick same finger... rub mark some more... frustrated that the mark was not coming off, I proceeded to lick the same finger again... rubbed the mark.

As I was rubbing the mark for the third {and last} time, I realized something: I havent washed my car since it began snowing back in October and I probably just licked my finger where about a million bugs had splattered! You should've seen me after this realization. It went a little like this:

Disgusted face... stuck tongue out... began wiping my tonuge off with sleeve... upset with with the result, I spit a couple times... continue thoughts of disgustingness {probably not a word} led me to rinsing my mouth with mouthwash. Awww, much better!

Next time, I must think before I act!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Snap!

The reason why I haven't wrote in my blog for the past couple weeks (up until a couple days ago) has been because I've been busy starting my website for my photography. CSS code sucks by the way. Anyways, I've been designing it, editing pictures to post on the site, and figuring out pricing for individual prints. It's been a fun experience thus far and I'm excited to see what the future holds for me with my new career choice. I pray I make it.

Mister has been so supportive. He is wonderful. He is always asking to see pictures right after they've been edited and when he's really impressed by one he gets all excited for me. I'm always hearing the words, "Good job!" come from his mouth. It's wonderful having a positive person in my life. I'm so very blessed.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Undoing the Not So Healthy Habits

I have a sweet tooth. It has brought much happiness to my taste buds, but much anger to the butt region of my body. Apparently, it has also brought my digestive system a lot of discomfort as well. Did you know that if your digestive system is out of wack, it messes up your ovaries which messes up your bladder. Consider that to be your new fact of the day if you didnt!

Before I knew of this new fact of ours, I went to the doctor for the horrible pain I was having in both ovaries. The last doctor I visited finally asked me some questions that actually made me bright red in the face:

What did you have for dinner last night: Ummm well, I ended up munching on some chips and what not. I just wasn't in the mood to sit down and have a nice dinner. I usually always eat really healthy though! {The things you tell a doctor...}.

What did you have this morning for breakfast: {Thoughts of uh oh popped into my head...} I had a protein bar. {lie! I had a nutty bar - close enough, eh?}.

What did you have for lunch today? {face starting to turn red... think of something healthy to say and quick!} Umm, one of those frozen weight watcher meals. {lie! Was that seriously my best excuse?! Truth is, I hadn't ate yet - I planned on doing so after my visit}.

Long story short, apparently my digestive system was starting to not work properly due to my diet {lack there of} and so she gave me rules to follow by {some that I have been slacking on} and said that once my nutrition gets back in order, everything will correct itself. If it didnt in three weeks, I had to go back so they could look at my organs. Lucky for me, no more pain!

Since this wake up call of mine, I've been eating really good lately. I'm making this my new lifestyle. I actually have always wanted to eat healthy, but its so easy to fall back on junk food when its such an convienence to my busy day. I've learned that planning things out is a much healthier way to go. Making meals ahead when I actually have the time and eating them when I'm short on it. Overall, I just feel happier about myself!

So thank you all for your concerns and thoughts! I'm all better :)

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Email Annoyance

Most people I've talked to have said that the most annoying part of planning a wedding is everyones ideas being thrown out there and how magically everyone you haven't talked to you in the last five years shows up and wants to be a special guest at the wedding. Now, I've experienced both of these already, and yes, it's quite annoying, but do you want to know what is even more annoying? Venues/photography sites/caterers/floral shops/etc that say, "Please contact us for pricing and more information" smack dab on their website. I'm a bride gosh darnit and I have a million things to attend to. Sending an email to about a hundred places to see if they're in my price range, is not my cup of tea nor is it on my list of fun doing. It's annoying!

End rant.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Smile

To put things simple: life's been hectic.  
Mister is doing well. Things with us are great. It's been hard to see each other as much as we use to on Skype with all of his deployment training, but we make it work. This whole deployment thing just sucks. He doesnt have an official date yet, but the month has been pushed up and the whole thing has now been extended. We're looking at a fantastic (cue sarcasm) 9 - 10 month deployment. Crappy. I'm sure it will change again another ten times. I'd be surprised if it wasn't more, but isn't that how the military goes?

I think for the first time, Mister's upcoming deployment has really started to get to me. Not in the sense of, "I don't know if I can do this." I know I can. More in the sense of, "I don't want to lose him." Normal, I know. It's his job and he's darn good at it. Sometimes I just wonder how I'm going to take it all. Will I be able to sleep at night or am I going to go almost a year with bad dreams and baggy eyes? Am I going to cry every day or will I just have my moments? Everyone is different I suppose, but it would just be nice to know how I was going to handle with it so that I could prepare myself for... well, myself.

The one thing I look forward to (rather him stay, but make best of the situation right?) is creating and sending care packages. Aren't they fun? While Mister was stationed at Japan, I learned how to do them real good and yet real cheap. The key: Dollar Tree and buying bulk. Both really do wonders on the bank account. It's nice just knowing that, that box is going to be in my loves hand some time after I send it and it will bring a smile to his face. How I would do anything to see that smile.

The other thing I look forward to, homecoming. From the day "I'll see you later" begins, so will the countdown to that first kiss. I've become obsessed with the show "Coming Home". Although I informed Mister that more Marines need to do some surprising because there has definitely been a lack of them on the show. He was too busy laughing his butt off at Jackass 3 to care what I was talking about, but his laughter brought a smile to my face and so I didn't really care. Like I said, I would do anything to see that smile.

Friday, March 18, 2011

I Love the Word "Free"

The past couple of days I've been looking at wedding pictures and somehow I came across free templates - who knew such wonderful things existed! So now that I've literally looked at every free template and DIY idea on Martha Stewart (as well as every other wedding site out there), I've come up with my favorites. Thought I would share them with you so that A. you could see the wedding progress and B. you could get ideas incase your planning a wedding as well (I know there are a few of you out there)!

Save The Dates:
We're printing ours from VistaPrint! It's a printing site that allows you to do pretty much everything so we're going to make our save the dates on there. If those turn out great, then we're going to look into doing invites as well! We figure the save the dates will be free based on a postcard deal they have going on. As the title says, I love "free".

Invites:
How are these for cute!


Since our relationship has been based primarily (basically ALL) on distance, I thought these would be perfect. They aren't 100%  for sure, depending on how the VistaPrint thing goes, but they're definitely in the running!

Center Pieces:
We're trying to save as much money as possibly by limiting the amount of flowers. I came across this DIY idea and think it might just do!



The idea is to have one of these at each round table (we'll need about 20-22) and then have a wine bottle with the table number as the wine label. Another thing that is great about this centerpiece is that any flower can replace the rose on top!

Dinner Menu (if we make one)
I'm not sure if these are a complete waste of time or not, but when I saw this template I made sure to save it in my favorites just in case. 


I have lots more ideas, but fingers are hurting from typing so much. What do you all think?

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Prayers Please

For the past week I've been having pain in both of my ovaries. It's not something I've ever felt before and I knew something was off. I took a couple of pregnancy tests to make sure that I wasn't pregnant and both have been negative. I'm now on my period, but the pain is getting worse and I can actually now feel both of my ovaries through my skin (they're swollen).

After talking with a nurse she explained that I should go into the doctor to check for cysts and other problems that could cause issues with ovaries. I have an appointment today and am really hoping for all of your prayers. My family and I don't have much for medical insurance and if they have to remove anything by doing surgery its going to place a major burden on my family. I'm praying this is nothing major and can be fixed with an anti-biotic.

Just please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Watching Money Fly By

I never had any idea how much money weddings can cost. We're trying to make this a nice wedding while keeping a low budget in mind. We were orginally shooting for $5000, but I think we said goodbye to that budget. I'm having a really hard time with this though. My parents are taking the financial burden because it has basically been placed right in their laps. With the job that I have and being in school still, I can't chip in as much. With my photography starting up, I will be putting all of the money into our wedding. I wish I could put it into better gear and lenses like orginally planned, but helping my family financially is my first priority. As for Mister, he has his own financial things that he needs to take care of.

Maybe I'm just stressed out. We have been doing a lot of planning lately so all of the numbers are just being thrown up in my face. I think we're just going to have to go through the check list again and see where money can be saved.

I think I just realized why people don't like planning weddings. Good thing this is only being done once twice*!


*note: small ceremony before he leaves, bigger wedding with everyone we love and care about when he comes home.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Said Yes to a Dress!

Yup, that's right - I bought a wedding dress! Last night I went looking to see what kind of dresses are out there with my mom, dad, and maid of honor. I never expected to actually purchase a dress, but once I tried it on, I knew it was it.

Well, I can't say I knew right away. You know in the show, "Say Yes to the Dress", well whenever someone finds their dress they usually get a feeling right away and the tears start pouring. Not this girl! I was confused about it at first and ended up taking it off to try something else. The next dress just didn't compare. My bridal consultant asked me one question though and from there, I knew that the dress I was at first confused about was it. The question: how do you want to look on your wedding day?

My vision for this wedding is romance. I want it to be romantic and fun so I went for the more romantic dress that I knew I could really dance in.

I wish I could show you all the dress, but you'll have to wait until October 2012!

Friday, February 25, 2011

Pregnant?

Everyone thinks so...

I started getting a little dizzy a couple days ago {and still am} and had to pee a lot. Only thing is though, my ears have been hurting {was sick} and therefore I'm pretty sure I was drinking more water than normal. I think that's two excuses to the two reasons. Thank God.

Don't get me wrong, I want to be pregnant one day. Just not now.

1. We're not married. In my family, that's a big no - no.
2. We are so financially unprepared its sick.
3. I know that if I was pregnant, it would push Mister towards doing something that I know he doesn't want to do... reup.

Biggest reason of all: I did some math {because I'm weird like that} and if I were pregnant then that would mean Mister would be deployed before the baby would be born. Now I know that happens all the time in the military, but that would break my mans heart. And mine. I'm sure we have nothing to worry about though. Although we didn't use protection... and my birth control did get messed up... oh crap.. lol.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

A Weekend in California

This past weekend I flew to California to spend time with my love. It was amazing! One of my favorite places we visited was San Clemente. The beach is gorgeous! Instead of me blabbing about my weekend and all that I saw, I figured I'd just show you...

We went to the beach in San Clemente..



While at the beach we were surrounded by...



We went to the San Diego Safari...






Can't forget these guys..




We also ended up visiting Misters grandpa in Escondido and made a trip to see his grandma who lives in a nursing home. Both were lovely people! His grandma even gave me a Marine teddy bear :)

While in California, I also got to see Mister's base and his barracks. It's all very different than what I expected! I loved everything so much though, that we are now talking about me moving out there for a few months before he deploys. I will have to get my schooling in order and make sure I can take online classes, but if everything goes smoothly, it looks like we'll be getting married in a couple months and I'll be on my way to Cali!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

If Not Now, Then Never.

I'm one of those people that when an opportunity comes my way, I tend to back off because I get scared. You could call it fear of failure. The thing I've come to realize though (especially with my career) is that if I don't try, I will never succeed.

In the last week, I've booked three photo shoots. One engagement, one newborn, and one pregnancy shoot. I have ideas for all of them, but since I'm still learning so much, I am worried they won't turn out right. I won't meet peoples expectations. Practice makes you better though and so reading articles and practicing is what I'm doing. Luckily, one of my clients is taking off the edge by calling it a practice shoot. Gosh, I love her :)

Check out my pictures here: click

Friday, February 11, 2011

*Cough*

Have you been hearing that noise lately? *cough* *cough*

Well that's been me. I've been sick for the past week and am now just starting to feel better {thank goodness}. Being sick has set me back a lot in school. I only missed one day, but as far as reading goes... well, it didn't. I figure I can catch up on the plane ride to Cali {yay me!}.

I have done a lot more wedding planning however {funny how you can be too sick to study, but not too sick to look up things for your wedding day}. We think we found the church for our small first wedding. It's a cute little white one. Check it out:


Golden Valley Historical Church
 Sweet right? Want to know what's even sweeter.. it's only $350 and we get to have whoever we want to marry us {Mister already knows someone that he's close with}. As far as the inside of the church goes, it doesnt look like it's anything special, but with simple but elegant decorations, I think we can really make it our own. Besides, it's not about what the place looks like, it's the fact that we're getting married that counts! I'm still looking for places for our renewal with all of our friends and family, but no such luck yet. Things are so gosh darn expensive these days. My search will just have to continue!

I had originally planned on going to a nearby wedding dress store with my mom to try on a pretty expensive dress, but than I came to the conclusion that spending $1500 was too much for this little chicka to be spending. So I did a little bit more looking and came across a stunning dress by Allure that's around $750. That's $800 dollars that I'll be saving myself! My mom and I fell in love with it as soon as we saw it. I'm going to try it on tomorrow {hopefully}!

Speaking of tomorrow, my mom and I are planning on doing some more wedding shopping. My mom had stopped by a craft store and found some nice material that we could use for favor bags. I'm probably crazy for making them, but I'm going to recruit some help so hopefully it won't be too bad. It's saving me money, which is important. I already told Mister that he's very lucky he's not here... otherwise he'd be making bags until his hands went numb =) He laughed.

It's officially past my bedtime and I'm in much need of sleep. I have a full day tomorrow and I need to get my beauty rest. Sweet dreams bloggy land.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Incase You're Interested..

Take a peek at these: CLICK ME

All done by me! Any feedback would be wonderful.

Tattoo Number Dos!

I've had the itch to get a tattoo ever since I got my first one almost three years ago. When it comes to tattoos, I think the best ones are those that have meaning which is the only kind that I would ever get. If I didn't, I would probably regret them later down the road.


When I arrive to Cali, Mister and I are looking into getting matching tattoos. We wanted something that meant a lot to us and had meaning behind it. We came up with this:



Symbol for love in Japanese

Mister and I met while he was stationed in Japan. It's where he was while we first fell in love.
I think it's the perfect next tattoo!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Ticket to Heaven

I'm suppose to be in class right now, but I decided to skip it. I needed a break. I had a test earlier this morning as well as tests the past two days. I figure after staying up until one in the morning, that I deserve to just rest before I go to work today. So that's exactly what I'm doing by catching up on blogs.

Some exciting news that happened yesterday: I bought my plane ticket and leave for Cali in two weeks! Gosh I can't wait! The plane ticket was a lot more than I wanted to pay, but thankfully Mister is chipping in and well, lets face it - the money is well spent! I'm not sure how much time we'll be able to have to talk once March hits because its going to be a very active month for the both of us so our weekend together is coming at a perfect time.

Things we plan on doing while I'm in Cali:



Going to the San Diego Wild Animal Park! I cannot wait! I plan on brining my camera and getting some really great shots.


Hiking up a hill to watch sunrise/sunset. When I looked up pictures of Escondido, one thing I noticed was some areas have some really great views from the hills. So we plan on taking a early morning or early afternoon hike so that we can watch the sunrise/sunset.


Checking out his base. I've never been on a military base and I think it would be kind of cool to see where he works and lives. It might help me see his day to day life a little better even while we're thousands of miles away.

What I'm excited about the most though is cuddling, holding his hand, kissing those lips, and staring into those beautiful eyes of his. EEEeeeek!!!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Valentines Day Ideas

Mister is planning on helping to fly me to California so that I can be with him the weekend after Valentines Day. I usually hate this day, but since he's been in my life, it's been given a lot more credit than it has in the past. I've been thinking a lot about what I should give him for "love day". I was going to have a photoshoot done and have it made into a calander, but that didn't end up working out. So now I'm left giftless.

Any ideas for what I can get the boy? Do you all have special plans?

Monday, January 31, 2011

The First Ten Dollars

Wedding planning is going full force now. My mom and I went out shopping at thrift stores on Saturday and spent our first ten dollars.

It was exciting!

Somehow it just makes things that-much-more-real. I love it!

Want to know what we bought? WELL, I would show you pictures, but my parents computer decided to take a crap and so my camera won't let me upload my pictures until I download the software again. Therefore, pictures will have to wait. I can still fill you in on what we bought though!

First $10 went towards:
- 2 glass jars with lids ($.97 each - cents!!)
- one bowl ($2.97)
- four vases ($4 + tax - too lazy to get receipt)

Overall, I'm satisfied! With the jars and bowls we are planning on doing something like this:

Candy Bar - idea from The Knot

We have about 7-8 more bowls/jar to go, but its nice to know that something is actually planned.

The four vases will be used to decorate the grooms table with the bridesmaids flowers.

Slowly, but surely, things are falling into place. Mister's grandparents are going to be paying/preparing the meal for our rehearsal dinner and are going to make/decorate our cake {pretty much amazing!}. Mister's mom is going to contact a photographer that she knows {who use to work for a Christian radio station} and thinks will give us a steep discount {yay for that!}. She is also going to talk to her church about prices for getting married there. We're hoping that if we have our small ceremony and our renewal there that they will give us some kind of deal {do churches do that? lol}.

As for colors, my mom and I went to look at flowers and put all of my colors {purple, green, burnt orange, and ivory} together. We LOVED it! I was going to take a picture, but of course my phone had decided that it wanted to have a low battery and refused to take a picture.

Right now the most stressful part is everyone's questions. IF I had answers to their questions it would be one thing, but having to explain why its hard to do all the planning right now {military reasons} is kind of annoying. I feel like I'm just repeating myself over and over again. Oh wells. If they don't understand there is no point explaining it.

There you have it =)

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Tax Money!

If you really knew me... you'd know that I am clumsy and that I have a tendency to break things. When I break things it's almost always a big expense on my side. This is why tax time is my favorite {don't make enough to pay in}!

Electronics especially are against me. Seriously, I get a new one and its broken a couple days later. This past week while I was on Skype with Mister, my parents hard drive on their computer crashed/died and the next day Misters computer fried {he blames me because... he can}. So now the fiance is going to have to use his tax money to get a new computer so that we can Skype again. Thank goodness for tax money, right?

As for me, my tax money is going towards a couple of things. I have about $900 to collect until I have the full amount that's due for summer classes. I need a new computer {if you saw mine, you'd understand} so I plan on buying one with tax money as well as Photoshop which I can get with a steep student discount. Since I'm getting the student rebate, I should have enough to do all three! If there is money left, I will be putting that away for trips to see Mister and our wedding. I thought about putting all of the money towards our wedding, but the boy made a very good point. I have the money right now to do the things I need to and I might not have that option later down the road. If I can pay everything in full and continue to live a very simple, money saving life, than I'm going to.

Now that you know what I'm planning on doing, what are your plans with your tax money {that is if you expecting to not be paying in}? Any awesome plans or projects that you're planning on doing?

Saturday, January 29, 2011

OVER It!

The look of my blog has got to go! "Something Beautiful" is in need of a serious makeover. Going to be working on a new look for the next couple of weeks. Go me!

ALSO!

Once I start posting pictures that I've taken, I'm thinking about possibly doing contests for someone to win a free piece. I'm also interested in giving away free photo shoots to girls that live in Minnesota/Wisconsin through contests.  It might be a little while until both of these happen, but I wanted to get peoples thoughts and opinions first. Eventually I will create my own photo blog where you can view my pictures and purchase pieces, but I figure I should work on this one first before handling two!

Would you all be interested in the picture/photo shoot contests?

Friday, January 28, 2011

Did Someone Say This Was Easy?

When it comes to choosing wedding colors there are endless combinations, endless ways to use the colors, and endless thoughts about what people think would be a good idea. Don't get me wrong, I like peoples input - two brains are smarter than one (I'd hope!) and so if someone throws out an idea that I like, I might just run with it. But seriously, no one ever told me this would be that difficult! I'm not whining or complaing - it's fun to look at sites like The Knot for inspiration, but at one point it becomes an overload and all common sense is thrown out the window {hint: mine!}.

So this is where you all come into play. What do you all think of: purple, green, burnt orange, and ivory? We'll be having a fall wedding and for some reason I just don't want to do the typical orange and brown. My cousin did that for his first wedding and it was gorgeous, but I just want something different. So: do you like the colors I'm thinking about and/or do you have any other color options that you think would look great for a fall wedding?


~One Lost Future Bride!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I'm Joining in on the Fun!



I was seeing everyone joining the Blizzard Bloghop 2010 and I thought I would too. I couldn't resist :)

If you would like to meet other bloggers make sure you check out The Household 6 Diva - all the guidelines are listed on her post!

About myself:

I'm a twenty-something blogger and a new fiance! My love proposed on Christmas Eve of this past year and we are planning on getting married before he deploys (he is a US Marine). I go to a community college near my home and am going to be finishing up my generals this year! I can't wait! I'm currently trying to fulfill my dream of being a photographer and hope to start bringing it to my blog soon!

As for my blog: I started it back in August 2009 to document things that were happening in my life. You will come to realize that I talk a lot about my Mister (my fiance) and things that are happening in our lives.
"Something Beautiful" is a place where I post my thoughts, hardships, dreams, worries and just about anything else you can think of. I haven't been the best blogger in the world, but I'm trying and hope to keep up the momentum.

If you would like to catch up on some of my most important posts, feel free to check out the links at the top right corner!

Can't wait to meet you all! =)

Taking a Moment to Take It All In

My parents were amazing enough to give me a brand new Canon T2i last month. They know that if I wanted to succeed in becoming a photographer that I needed to start taking pictures and learn the basics so that I can improve. Since then, I've taken well over a thousand pictures (so easy to do) and am learning a lot of new techniques.

One of the best things I've learned from taking pictures is how beautiful the world really is. When one turns on the TV, there's nothing but sex, war, terrorism, death, and murder. With stories like these, it's hard to be optimistic. It's hard to see the good in people and the good in the world. It's when one really opens their eyes and take a moment to look around that they see that there is so much more to this world than what first appears. There's beauty in the way the sunlight hits a persons face, the way trees bend in the wind, and the way a flower feeds bees. There is beauty in the colors that paint a sunset, a flag that flows proudly (seems like Perkins always has the best ones!!), and the way a couple holds hands and look at each other with nothing but content.

Everyday I try to take a few moments to take some pictures. It centers me and is a great way to lose any bad feelings. It helps me grow closer to God and appreciate life that much more. In a world of uncertainty, its nice to know that all I have to do is look around and God is there.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

While I've Been Away

I haven't been on Something Beautiful for a while, but I've been meaning to write for some time now. With college back in session and trying to get as many hours as possible at work, it's easy to get caught up and watch time fly right on by.

Couple things while I've been away:
  1. Mister and I are planning on for sure getting married before he deploys later this year. We will have a vow renewal when he comes back home that will include a reception.
  2. I think I found my dress - it's gorgeous to say the least. More than I wanted to spend, but completely worth every penny!
  3. I am starting to take more pictures and get back into photography. In the field of photography, constantly practicing and trying new things is important. I am always looking at pictures for creativity and plan on sharing my pictures with you all in the near future.
  4. After two and a half weeks without my ring, I have it sized and it fits my little size four finger perfectly!
  5. Mister and I are starting to really crack down on saving money. He's been amazing in this area - I'm so proud of him! I've watched him go from spending his money on random "unnecessary" things, to doing whatever it takes to save money so that we don't have to worry financially. He is wonderful to say the least.
Now that you're caught up, I have to catch up on my blog reading. Will write again soon!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The Ring

I know there were some girls that asked to see the ring.. so here it is:



I love it!!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

We're Engaged!

These past two weeks have been crazy amazing. About two weeks ago, Mister came home for leave. Seeing him for the first time in a year was the best feeling in the world. His plane arrived a half hour early so we had to rush as we were just pulling into the parking area. When we finally saw him, his sisters and the rest of his family were the first to hug him. When everyone had their chance, it was finally mine. I cried as he held me, kissed his lips and took in the special moment of being back in my mans arms again. When we were done saying hello again to one another, I took a step back to look at him. The first thing out of my mouth, "You're a lot taller than I remember." It's true though! I don't remember him being so tall, but I guess your memory can become fuzzy about things like that when you've been away for a year.

One of the cutest moments that happened at the airport was from a complete stranger though. A woman came up to us and explained that when Mister and I finally said hello to one another, that she couldn't help but tear up. That it was so sweet watching us. Yaaa.. we are cute :)

The first few days of Mister being home were great! It was amazing to have him back home and just being with one another. A damper though was as soon as Mister got home, his bills came and he had no money left. We made it work though. I had saved a lot of money and had no problem with chipping in on little things. We're a team, chipping in and helping one another is just something you do.

About a week went by and it was finally Christmas Eve. Mister's parents are separated, so we spent Christmas Eve at his moms house and then he was going to spend Christmas day at his dads. Christmas Eve morning I went over to his moms house and was greeted by his whole family. I opened a stocking they had for me and cuddled with my love in our pj's. We had yummy "monkey brains" and then it was time to open presents! I was so excited for him to open my presents that I got him. I knew he was going to freak out. When it was finally time for him to, he did exactly what I thought he was going to: freak out! I bought my love some amazing tickets to his favorite teams game - something he's always wanted to be able to go to. Needless to say, I did good!

After presents were opened, Mister and I went out to go shopping for his dad - or so I thought! As we drove into one of my favorite cities, I couldn't help but take pictures. Snow had just fallen so the whole town was coated with a blanket of white. It was beautiful. As we drove to find parking, a really nice decorated gazebo appeared. Mister asked if I wanted to go up to it. Of course I said yes. I wanted to take pictures and take in the scenery with him.

As we were walking up to the gazebo, I began to tell Mister about how my aunt was married going down the river on a ferry. Once we walked up a few stairs we were underneath the small building and I set down my purse on a bench so I could take some pictures. Mister turned me around and asked me if I knew what was special about the place we were standing at. I said no. He then began to tell me that my mom and dad had their first date there and that it was also the place where he was going to ask me to marry him. I instantly began to cry. He went to pull something from his jacket and out came a little box. That little box had a beautiful ring in it that I was able to see as he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes!

I was bawling as we hugged one another and then he finally put the ring on my little finger. This is when I really got to look at my ring  and it is stunning. Much bigger than I expected, but I'm not complaining :) It was exactly what I wanted and was so impressed with his pick!  Not to mention the sparkle. Oh how it sparkles!

After taking in my ring, I called my mom and told her the news. She already knew about it all though because the night before Mister had asked my parents for my hand in marriage. Good boy! To say I was on cloud nine is an understatment. Truely the happiest girl in the world.

We found ourselves to get all hungry from the excitement so we stopped and enjoyed some food at Dairy Queen - a place where we had our first date (you do what you can when you're broke hehe).

When we got back to his house, we were congradgulated by his whole family. I cried again as they all hugged me. It was yet again a perfect moment.

The rest of the night was dampered by an incident that happened shortly after. I will explain this later, but want to leave this post a good one. Long story short: mister and I are happily engaged!
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