Sunday, July 24, 2011

Today I was able to spend some time with my best friend at the beach. It was so relaxing to be able to lay out in the sun and hear the waves crashing. I noticed two things during our two hour beach session:

1. Being at the beach in the midwest is quite different then being on the beach in California. I would take California any day, but I can be content under the circumstances.

2. Seeing all the young families almost made me want to have my own little one. Keyword: almost. I couldn't imagine having a baby during this point of my life, which is probably why God hasn't blessed me with one yet - that and the fact that Mister is over two thousand miles away may also have something to do with it. Seeing young parents play sand castle with their kids and taking pictures of their newborns playing in the sand was just too precious though. It just makes me so excited to be a future mommy!

One day!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Looming D.

I probably shouldn't be writing when I'm this tired, but here I am writing anyways. This is a recipe for disaster. I've realized nights are when I'm most emotional so typing right now is probably a no, no. But here I am, typing away!

Mister is currently training for his deployment and I don't have much access to talk to him. It's making me realize how hard this stupid deployment is going to be. There's no way to prepare for them, but little tastes of it scares the crap out of me. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I'm strong enough. If I'll be able to cope with not talking to him. I remind myself though that if God brought me to this, he'll pull me through to the very end. So, I move forward and suck it up - just like all the other men and women out there whose loved one is deployed.

It's so weird how the time has passed. It seems like just a little bit ago Mister came over to the states to be stationed in California. It's already been almost eight months and the day he leaves US soil again is coming up closer each day. I get emails all the time asking me how to deal with a deployment. It's so easy to tell a person to stay busy, write a lot and maintain personal goals. Going through the process yourself is a whole different story. It's scary, stressful and emotional.

Having been through three deployments already, you think one would become a pro at it. Simple truth: they don't get easier. Not to mention every one I've been through have been month long deployments, not seven or eight. I've been blessed on those short deployments to be able to talk to him every couple days, if not every day, at least through email. Therefore, this one is going to be brutal. I can already feel it creeping up one me. I know soon its going to be tapping on my shoulder and then I'm going to face the big bad D in its face. Oh how much joy that will be.

I guess it's just part of the military life that I have to get used to. At least until Mister gets out. Ahh that's another topic for another night.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Field Pictures

While I was in Oklahoma I had the chance to take some pictures out in a field. Check them out here!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Things have been crazy lately. My dad just had surgery last month and now my brother is having surgery in a couple of weeks. On top of that, if he has the surgery, which he needs, he'll lose his job. Talk about great huh?

I haven't had much time to write lately due to working so much and trying to get my photography going. I've had a few photo shoots and have been learning more and more lately. It's been wonderful!

Not so wonderful is all of the pre-deployment training Mister is doing. I know his workup is larger then most due to certain circumstances, but come on! It's just nice knowing that soon he'll be deployed and soon after that we'll get to start our lives together. Together. I love that word.

Over the fourth of July I was able to spend a whole five days TOGETHER with him. It was wonderful. By the way I basically saved him on the beach... I won't go into detail, but I wanted to plug that in incase we look back at this and I can remind him :) Yes Mister, I saved you!

My last post stated that I was going to be going to the Marine Corps Ball. Unfortunately, money is tight and I won't be going anymore. I'm heart broken, but I understand at the same time. That means, the dress that I have might be going up for sale. I'm still deciding whether or not to do this because I love it so much. There aren't many dresses like it and I know that if I sell it, it'll be gone. So right now, I'm thinking.

Well I'm off to go search for wedding contests! I am determined to save money by winning things - now if only my luck turns around :) Wish me luck!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Big Moving Mistake + Ball!

When I had the chance to move to California, I should have taken it. This past fourth of july weekend, I spent an amazing 5 days with my fiance. We talked about ways to keep me out there, but with things this soon to his deployment, it's just not possible. Two words: this sucks. The day I left, I cried up until five minutes of boarding my plane back home. It's the hardest I've ever taken leaving Mister. Normally I'm able to bounce back pretty easily, but this time, I feel like a part of me is still in California. I have no motivation for anything right now. It worries me how things are going to be when he's deployed. I won't give up - never would be an option for me, but gosh it's going to be hard.

One nice thing I learned about while in California is that they cut two months off of his deployment. How great is that! I'm sure it will change another million times, but 9 months instead 7 months would be awesome. I will take it. I also learned that I am going to the Marine Corps Ball!!! I'm going to post my dress that I'll be wearing so you can all see it. I need to know if you all like it or if I should get  a new one. It's my prom dress that I wore a long time ago and luckily it still fits. :)

Well I'm off to spend some time with my friend. I need girl time right now. Much love!
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